Reaching 30

Passing 20, 21, 22, 23....27, 28, 29...and now 30.

I feel old, matured and what i've taken with me are the valuable experiences i gained.

I remember living in Serangoon Ave 4. When we dash out of our beds to wait for the door on our door. Its Hari Raya Puasa. Our neighbour Kat Mas will bring over a bring tray of all my favourite food. The red chicken, the peanut sauce liver...

Moving from my childhood neighbour and to Seng kang.

I used to think $10 was enough to take a taxi to anywhere. From Seng Kang to Serangoon Ave 4 was already $6.

Feeling a big yearning to keep in touch with those who still stays at Serangoon Ave 4.

Conforming to the culture at Seng Kang, where neighbours who do not even say hi to each other along the corridoor.

My parents got a divorce.

Getting my 'O' Levels results. Got selected into Diploma of Nursing.

Should i or should i not?

First day of school. Xiao Fen and Sook Fun (my secondary school classmates) were in my class.

I dated an indian jerk who robbed me of my youth, money and soul.

Starting my first job as a nurse.

I dated a guy 6 years younger than me. Got pregnant, got unpregnant.

Almost got married. He was not man enough.

Got depressed and needed medication to stablised my mood.

Volunteered medical relief at Banda Acheh after the Indonesian Tsunami.

Realised that i despite of my shameful past, i could give some of myself to others.

Decided that i am capable of controlling my moods and will not let it overwhelm me again.

Bought a dog to help me get through the pain.

Openned up myself to my colleagues at Ward 8c. Found friendship that would last a lifetime.

Uma tried to matchmake someone with me. That someone had liked me since polytechnic.

18 Feb 2006, we started our journey together as soulmates.

2007 15th day of Chinese New Year. My dog got lost. And was later found dead when he was knocked down by a speeding car.

Moved out of my house.

Quitted my job at TTSH. Got in and out of jobs. Did not know what i wanted. From the skinny girl i was, i started gaining weight. 42kg, 45kg, 50kg...

Decided that friends who are of bad influence in my life, should be kept at a distance.

3 Mar 2008, joined IMH.

8 Nov 2008, got engaged to my soulmate.

Bought a resale flat.

Had a miscarriage. And realised that career is not everything.

20 Sep 2009, had my grand wedding banquet.

Reaching 30, i am ready to have my own home and to be a mummy.

30 Oct 2009, i see the life that past me by. Like mini video clips in my head and flashes of happy and sad images. No wonder some people say,'You must treasure your youth. Cos before you know it, it will fly pass."