I need a sign that gd can happen to me

Life is so strange sometimes

If you ask me, which do i prefer

To be placed on cloud 9 and fall flat on your face the next minute

or

To feel everything is going wrong and then to be boosted on cloud 9

I prefer the latter

Its like having a smile and having it wiped off your face

I want to smile again

I want to have something that creates a smile that would last

I am pleading with You

Please...i need to smile