My Little Mango

4 more months

Mummy will meet this 'Little Mango' that forms Kallang Waves in my tummy.

Gets excited when noodles and rice is served on the table.

Dance to the beat of class 95fm

And when your daddy returns home, you try to tell him 'welcome home'

I laugh when i see the tiny jumpers i just bought for you. So cute.

Do the people who sew these get a heart attack each time they sew such small clothes?

Auntie Jace bought you a bib from Australia to add on to the many bibs you have.

Will you be needing so many? Haha

We just went Ikea yesterday and your daddy wants to buy a $200 mattress for you. With spring and breathable sheets. I thought its too expensive for a baby's mattress.

But your daddy says its important you sleep well like a prince. And when you outgrow this premium mattress, your daddy says he will use it. So if you wonder why a big grown man is sleeping on your tiny mattress, this is why.

So many people are giving me advice on raising a child. I believe your parents though inexperienced, will try to give you the best to groom you into a pride and joy.

Be a good boy and continue to grow healthily. I will be waiting to see you soon.

I feel blessed

I tot you will be a late bloomer. But its ok (i thought), cos its said that children born at the end of the year are smarter than the children during the rest of the year. Because you have a late start and gotta catch up like every other child who is born earlier in the same year.

At 4 months i should be feeling for your kicks. But i did not. Suddenly like your surprise gift for me, you kicked and punched my tummy. Its like you are afraid of being forgotten. "Mummy i'm here! i'm here!"

At 5 months, you gave mummy a special gift. It made me think of how blessed i am. If i ever forget, i hope that whenever i look at you, i will remember of how blessed i am.

Daddy says a friend of ours got lucky because she married a rich doctor and i got unlucky marrying a nurse. I was too happy with your gift that i did not reply him.

It took me the next morning to reflect on what he said. Yes, we are not rich rich. But i love my home, i love your daddy even though he is not romantic, i love that he gets confused at times on how to make me happy. But i tell you, at least he tries his best at that. And i thought, i feel blessed.

Somehow i think you only get excited to Class 95 fm. Now you won't stop experimenting on how you can cause a hick on my tummy. You do it so often now and my tummy has become a lion dance drum.

I am so glad you are reminding me of the blessing i am having growing inside of me. And of the blessing you will be when we meet face to face

Dear Baby,

Mummy was so worried that you are not doing well inside my tummy. Cos you are so quite and peaceful. I visited Dr Vida and saw that you are still resting well in me. You were kicking and sucking your thumbs.

Dr Vida and your parents saw that you are a boy. But when we wanted to see clearer, you fell asleep with your thighs clamped shut. I think you are telling us to be patient and will only reveal at the right time. That part, reminds me of your daddy. Being very logical and disciplined.

Like some kind of fortune telling ball, daddy rubs my tummy and asks,"Are you a girl or boy?"

I replied," A boy."

Daddy continues to talk to the ball,"Good! Then you can sleep whole day with me, i will teach you how to play basketball, you will play computer whole day with me..."

"Huh? Then no activity with mummy?",I asked.

Daddy smiles and was feeling proud that he will have his own playmate. And that i don't.

"I really can't wait to do that with my child you know.",Daddy chirps.

"Good for you." , I replied

Baby, i hope that even though Daddy have booked so many fun activities with you, you will not forget the Mummy that will give life to you.

You will give me activities like, rubbing my neck when i come back from work and listening to me ventilate about my job stress.

A letter to my...

I am always the type of person who believes appreciating someone for their efforts rather than gifts. I have always thought that it would be so nice to have a new family that has dinner every week. With home cooked food. I understand now, you don't like to put in effort unless it is to your fancy. You like to use money to replace the effort u cant give.

Since young, though my grandmother has a kitchen god altar in her kitchen, she has never asked us to hold a joist stick or offer gifts to the altar.

Though she brought us to her buddhist scripture study gathering, my brother and i were not asked to join in their rituals. Except for enjoying the delicious sweet potato soup after the gathering.

I remember her telling me not to drink cold drinks in the morning and often soft drinks is not good for health. Not to touch the cat while having my dinner. And that mushrooms are filled with lots of vitamins.

However, i do not remember her telling me not to eat chicken when i have a cough, or not to eat peanuts when i have a wound. I do not remember her telling me that someone born in a year of cow is clash with my zodiac signs.

So any of these that i've heard you saying...its the first i've heard in my life. You say you are very westernised and modern. I think my grandmother is more modern than you.

And if you think by telling me, you are 'educating' me...you are wrong. I have no intention to take them seriously or even follow them to any degree.

So don't tell me i should be doing this and that, when they are all related to stuff that i find absurd and have no intention of understanding. Because it has no reason.

And don't go on to say that if i don't follow, some bad thing will happen to me. Cos that will make me angrier. Because you are cursing me.

I have given up hope for u to be actively involved with my life as a mother in-law. So don't come saying you are afraid when the baby comes, u will be too tired to help me. And try to buy a confinement lady for me.

Admit it, you are lazy. if you are too tired then don't. A confinememt lady cannot replace you, your effort.

You know, my grandmother who is reaching her 80s is wanting to come over to help me, not only just to help. She is also eager to spend time with her great grandchild. She is not coming to make sure i follow tradition, by not bathing, not touching water etc.

So whats your intention of getting me a confinement lady?

Any of your intentions, if its something to do with something i dun believe in, pls stop forcing it down on me. Stop.But if your intention is to care for me and care for your grandchild, i will gladly let you do it.