Sincere words

Just a week ago, i was battling between a new love and an old love. The new love was exciting and sweet. It was a reminder of what could have been. Or what i may have.

The old love was monotonous and stagnant. We were working things out in our relationship…the painful part in relationship building as the honeymoon is over and we got to learn to accept each other with love.

Although all is sweet with new love, it was neither very hot or cold. When it blows very hot, i feel happy, blushed.

When it blows very cold, i sit and wait for things to happen.

I went to have dinner with old love. We were like old pals. He burps and i dont care. I forget about eating like a lady cos he dont expect me to. I dont have to clean my spoon before i scoop the herbal duck, cos even if my rice grains drop into the herbal duck…he will eat them anyways.

I imagine myself with new love having dinner. I would have to be on my best behaviour. Eat like a lady, behave like a lady. Eat food that wont mess up.

Its all too tiring for me.

Sometimes i wanna just chop off his head and sometimes i love him soooo much.

Is this the way a long lasting companion should be?

Then i made my decision

I told him,"

Which couples dont have rough patches? The most impt thing is we know how to kiss and make up. You can live the rest of your life with someone when you can be naked and still feel comfortable. You can fart anytime and wont feel embarassed. I can be on your worse behaviour and still be accepted. I made up my mind to be with you. Lets work to build a future together."